Because I'm told I don't blog enough

I honestly don't know how I want this one to come off or out or read or whatever.

There's been a lot going on since I last wrote.  There have been tears.  Food.  Laughs.  Tracks.  Treadmills.  Windy days.  Cold.  Warmth.  Indecision.  Dates.  Diseases.

And the list could go on.

I think what it really comes down to is that life is hard, but if you don't let it overtake you and bring you down there's a lot to be learned and loved.

I have done a lot of thinking (or as my CSPA friends like to call it: reflecting) as of late.  Many of you know that I love to think, but my thinking usually leads me down paths I'm not ready to traverse.

Or am I?

Over the past two weeks I have had conversations ranging from the insanely funny to the downright depressing and soul-crushing.  I've laughed over words like "puppy feet and shovels".  I've cried over words like "no" or "already filled" or "we are no longer able to".

But I learned from all of this as well.

I learned that laughing until your doubled over and crying is something that I miss.  It's healthy and fun.  And something that is definitely needed.

I also learned that "no" is okay.  "No" doesn't mean never.  "No" isn't an end to the world.  It was good to get the cry out though.  And I know there will be plenty more where these came from.

Overall though, I think the main takeaway point of this is that life sucks, but what you do with it, what you learn from it, where you take the negative you're handed doesn't have to.

Maybe.

This could have been more cohesive and concise and better, but it is what it is.

Playlist for the night.  The last song was a ridiculously-random-and-brings-tears-to-my-eyes-because-it's-so-fitting song.

The Morning -- The Weeknd
Colours (Stars) (Xaphoon Jones Remix) -- Skizzy Mars [Ft. Grouplove]
Reach (Ft. Quasimoto) -- Jaylib
So Many Animal Calls -- Q and not U
Sleep Rules Everything Around Me -- Wugazi
Debaser -- Pixies
Paradise Circus -- Massive Attack
Dilettante -- St. Vincent
Que Sera Sera -- Doris Day