Title has nothing to do with anything. I just like it.
Anyway. I realized tonight that a lot of changes have happened since graduation. This year between undergrad and grad school has been enlightening to say the least.
The hardest part is embracing it all.
I've learned a lot and come to many different conclusions about life and love and religion and overall ideals of living.
The most recent: I cannot wait to have kids. More specifically, I desire that my future consists of at least one son. I don't know what his name will be. I don't know if he'll play sports or dance or be a boy scout or be a cheerleader. I don't care. I want to be the father who shoots basketball (no matter how horribly) with my son. The father who sits on the curb with an ear to listen to the first break-up story, and the words to ensure it will all be okay and that one day (many break-ups down the road) the one true love will come. I want to be the dad who gets a door slammed in his face by a son who is pissed because his ass-hole father wouldn't let him go to a party or drive somewhere he knows isn't going to be safe. I want to be the same father who is there to pick up his son when he sneaks out to the party anyway with no questions asked until the next afternoon.
In other words, I want a son. I want my first child to be a son. And if I have more, I want to try really hard to not play favorites...but still...there're always favorites.
Anyway...that's really all.
Tonight's blog writing playlist:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tknrTkxBeU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0mYRHYZqBNg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZhpS0IHGaus
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTCYQiVc9Bs
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