It's rare for me to admit things to people. It's rare for me to open up and be completely honest with people. Hell, it's hard to open up to myself. I've had people that were close enough to know me. They've come and gone for the most part...mostly due to me. I'm working on letting people stay. It's hard though.
I need myself to stay too though. So, I'm working on that as well. Counseling was...no....is a big step for me. I'm trying to become that person I want to be; the problem is I don't know who that person is. Mainly because I've never let that person grow and develop. So, that being said, I've done a few things/made a few decisions the past couple of weeks that I'm now realizing had, unbeknownst to me, psychological and emotional ulterior motives behind them. And it scares me and excites me and makes me ridiculously nervous all at the same time.
So, maybe I'll open up to you (whoever you is) about it...or maybe you'll ask...either way, it's happening. Decision made.
Playlist is short tonight, sorry.
Ryan Calhoun -- Who We Are
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fr-0t0vOryQ
Ryan Calhoun -- Hope
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RO-VNGgApsI
2 comments:
Sometimes, it is good to open up and let everything out, even though that is easier said then done.
Don't regret a thing in life. If something needs to be said or done, then say it or do it. (My newest philosophy.) I've let so many things slip through my hands before. I've also wanted to say some things before but I've bit my tongue and now, I regret it. But I've gotten a bit more um...saucy, I guess you could say. I tend to tell people what needs to be said now and I wind up not regretting a thing.
Hope everything goes well for you. :3
Posting here because my blog is a bitch and it wouldn't let me reply to you: Yes, you know me. I am Mike. Factory Ruins from AP. :3
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