Because if Rachel can, I can

Rachel blogged, so now I will.  You know, to one up her lack of blogging admission with my admission of not blogging very often.

Anyway.

What's going on?  Well, I don't really know where to start.

Honestly, I don't know where I am.  In life.  In school.  In my brain.  Whatever.

I also don't know if I am okay with that or not.  Right now I'm leaning toward...hell, I don't know.

So, do I just word vomit on here or take this in a controlled, well-defined way?  Ugh.

I think what I'm most worried about is the future.  And honestly, this is kind of new to me.  I have learned not to worry about the future because it is going to happen anyway.  But right now it's just all up in the air and I don't know where I actually want to be.

What are my options you ask?

Well, I have two roads when it comes down to it.

Road One: A PhD in Counseling from the University of Tennessee - Knoxville.  I have been thinking about going for a counseling degree since I began the psychology major at JMU in undergrad.  Starting this M.Ed program and taking the counseling classes that come along with it have really made me think even more about going further.  I got a few comments on things in the past couple of weeks that have been awesome and helpful.  But I've also thought about other things that have really turned me against doing this.  I also got a letter in the mail from them asking me to explain my conviction and/or arrest.  Blah blah blah...I was told that I may come across as memorable...you know, that whole fishing without a license thing...

Road Two: I graduate in May (I'll do that on Road One, too) and I'll get a job.  But where?  And doing what?  Hell, I don't know.  I would love to move to a beach.  I would love to stay on the east coast.  I would love to go back to Penn State.  I would love a lot of things...as long as they're not in Virginia.  I don't know...It's just road two I guess.

What do I do?  Hell if I know.  But

I guess I'll know something near January or February?

Maybe by then I'll have the rest of my life figured out too.  Yeah?

Doubtful.

But maybe that's the point of living...to not have it all figured out.  Just let it happen, right?