Dec 19, 2012

Goals and Things

I don't know what exactly I want to post tonight.  So I think I'll just go with some thoughts and things that have been bouncing around my head lately.

I believe I'll start that with goals for break (in no particular order):

  • Read for fun
    • I brought Everything is Illuminated and Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer with me from JMU.  I think I'll get through those two and see where that takes me.  Overall, I miss reading for fun.  I want to expand my knowledge on things other than educational stuff.  I want to read like I used to!
  • Figure out my issues
    • Yes, I know this sounds absolutely ridiculous, but it makes sense to me.  Sort of.  Basically, I have things constantly clouding my thoughts and making it hard to move forward with parts of my life.  I need to do some deeper thinking and reflection on those things.  I think home may be a good place to do it since I won't be distracted by friends and things as much as I would at school.  It is going to be a tough road, but a good one to start travelling down though...I think.
  • Start writing again
    • I used to write a lot.  I mean, you can go through my past entries and see that I would write poems and things.  I'm not a poet by any stretch of the word, but it was my outlet.  I haven't done it in forever.  I miss it!  This writing thing includes blogging too.  I want to keep things updated for my own sake.  I know there are only a few people who actually read this, but I believe writing things out helps me process.  And processing is good.
  • Have a long overdue conversation with my parents
    • This one is going to be hard.  Very hard.  But it needs to be done.  Why not now while I'm here and have a captive audience?  I'll need strength to do it.  Hopefully it's here.
  • Work on school work
    • I know I'm on a break, but I have a Hell of a lot of work to do.  I want to finish my practicum paper (that was sort of, kind of due in August...).  I want to get a big chunk of my Portfolio taken care of.  Again, there are very few distractions here, so I think I will be good. :)
  • Renew my driver's license
    • Simple.
  • See how much weight I lose over break
    • I have a feeling it is going to be a significant amount.  I just don't feel like eating right now (though, I still do it anyway...).
  • Have a few good cries
    • May sound kind of off or depressing, but good cries help me rid myself of the shit I have stored up in me.  They also help me emote in a more physical, healthy way.  So, having a few good cries this break would be great!  Only in private, though.
  • Make it through the holidays
    • I don't prefer this time of year.  I just want to make it through in one piece.
  • Hear back from Tennessee
    • Kind of out of my control, but I'd like to hear something of some sort.  I would love some idea of direction for my life.
  • Decide what kind of jobs I want if PhD isn't happening
    • Ha!  Don't see this happening, but it needs to.  I don't have the highest of hopes for getting into the program at Tennessee, so the job thing is going to be a necessity.  And I don't want to get stuck somewhere like Virginia Tech or Radford.
I think that does it.

Not too much, right?

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